My Grandad

Sometimes I get so scared and freaked out about not being able to afford to get my hair done, to go out with my friends, what is the right thing to say, the right people to hang out with, what to wear to which event....

Then I think about my grandad... possibly the greatest man alive - his heart is blind to the colour of skin, blind to a person's appearance. His heart speaks all languages, and isn't affected by the disability of judgement ....He lives in a world where helping others comes before helping himself.

His heart is what makes me want to be a better person. He himself is why I try never to judge a person by their job. His influence is why I pretty much talk to anyone that is near, why I buy the homeless man up on Ponsonby road muffins and a coffee, why I donate my clothes to women's refuge instead of selling them, the reason why I voice my opinion when it really matters and why I am who I am.

You see my grandad installed into my brain that it doesn't matter where you come from... what matters more in life is the journey and where you are heading.

He taught me that respecting others is the greatest gift you can give, and that laughter and love is the only medicine your soul needs in order to keep you well.

Little things

Please look in my eyes, For I have nothing to hide

As I wipe the slate clean and share this with you as I take on my own and the pain of your soul.

It's the little things in life That really matter.

These fine fine lines, make for trying times, show the life that I am living, these lines show the laughter and joy I have had in my life, The tears I have shed, The pain and hardship I have had to endure to get to where I am, the trying times that also make you stronger.

In life you need to take your strength, pass it around , and then move on.

Move on to bigger and better, never waste a moment thinking about the woulda coulda shoulda's in your life.

Don't for a second give up your time worrying about those that hurt you, brought you down, broke your heart. As hard as it seems to believe you do get through that pain that soul destroying heart ache does pass on, and leave you behind to move on only leaving memories and lessons for the future .

Trust me the little things in life .....They are what truly matter.

You are what gets me through the day

I love you Chch

I know times are tough at the moment. It has been a week since the horrific earthquake in Christchurch, and my heart goes out to everyone who has been affected.

I feel so selfish at times when I dwell over my problems.

In the scheme of things they are really so minimal it makes me drop my head in shame.