Don't ask me what i want to be..................

the other day someone asked me what i wanted to be or do, the truth is its hard enough being me with out thinking about that question.

I am torn between my inner hippie and my desire to be a success.

There are days when I yearn to travel the world .................

Then there are the days when I dream of being successful having my own company(not sure what that is quite yet)
its so hard trying to decide what you want to be, there are so many options, it really does my head in.
I blame society really, we have become a country who judges people on there dreams, don't try and deny it. I admit. I have snubbed a dreamers dream and probably along the way crushed it, who hasn't.

why cant things be so simple, why cant i get to my destination and do both, free my inner hippe and become the next Anna Wintour ( excuse my slight exaggeration).

I will tell you why, its because i have always been around the "you cant people" where things are just to dam hard and there are always complications.

I have been like that my whole entire life...if someone was to ask me "what do you want to be " it would always be" I want to .... but i cant" it wasn't till a friend who is always on the positive vibe got so frustrated with me constantly saying"i cant, i cant i cant "

Screamed something i always knew but never considered"for once can you stop saying you CAN'T and say i will give it a go"

I don't know why I hadn't thought of her words of wisdom on my own but I do know that my bubbly "love life" sorta friend was right.

So fellow bloggers Its taken me twenty three years to get here and its been a hard long ride but i am slowly but surely reaching my destination and getting off this confusion train, I still don't know what i want to but then again who does right?