I'm sorry that I lied to you and told you that I would love you forever.

I'm sorry that I don't know what is going through my turmoil brain,and why I am so unhappy, I'm sorry I cant seem to make sense and that I told you that I didn't know if I loved you, I'm sorry I shattered your heart into little pieces but I couldn't be in this half heartedly.

There was a time when you were my everything, the reason I woke up in the morning with a smile on my face, the reason I dressed up and made an effort instead of walking out of the house in track pants or pajamas. the reason the world made sense.

You were my go to person when I was down, when I heard some juicy gossip, when I always locked my keys in the car, when I couldn't stop crying because I had watched a sappy movie or I heard a sad song, my go to person that always made me laugh and would hug me and call me a silly muli, when I spoke before thinking ...you would roll your eyes and say something like "no little miss Ashby the whale isn't real, hence why its in a museum"

We had great summers going to the beach, diving, laughing with our friends staying up all night talking about the future and what it beholds for us...I felt so safe around you, like I was unstoppable I loved you so much that the thought of not being around you made me sick to my stomach...

But something happened.....we began to argue alot say things that will forever hurt each other, you never came home in the weekends, you said that you didn't love me to many times and I to you, we lost the magic we lost our wreckless love.

I honestly don't know how we will both cope I wish life was easy and that I couldn't feel the pain ...

I' m so sorry that I won't be your some kind of wonderful, but how can I when I'm not happy with myself, hopefully this is a rut. Hopefully we will reunite in the future, Hopefully .....

But I am sorry I lied to you, I wanted to be your forever I really did...and for that I am sorry.