Back to Front

If I woke up in the mornin'
And the world was back to front
There was sunshine in the evenin'
And the moon came out for lunch

I wouldn't mind walkin' backwards with you
At least we'd always know where we'd be goin' to
We could talk till we forget how to talk

And we could learn to laugh again
Like when we were children
We could learn to dance again
Like nobody is watchin'

If everyone was gettin' young
There'd be a smile on your face
If all the friends that passed away
Came back to this place

We'd be puttin' down the daisies
Drinkin' milk and feelin' lazy
There's no sense in any senses
What's the use in independence?

We could play of the tears that came
We could walk till we forget how to walk
And cool till we forget anything at all


We could learn to look right
Into each others eyes
'Cause we got nothin' to hide


Back to front, front to back
Will you come backwards with me
Backwards with me?

No judging in the non judging cirlc

Hi Sim,


Dogg love from the Dogfather oof oof

I just put that above photo becausee I love it :-)

I was wondering why ........

I never told you that you made my heart flutter every time you walked in a room,that you are the first thing I think about when I wake up and in my dreams when I go to sleep or that I re -read your texts over and over .

I never told you that you make me want to scream at the top of my lungs " I heart you a million times over. " That when you were with her I was wishing it was me.That you give me a feeling that I never felt before, its become something that's impossible to ignore.

But I never told you, What I should have said No, I never told you I just held it in......I wonder why I couldnt just tell you ....that I heart everything about you.

My mind never stops ticking. It is constantly working and some times I cant figure out where the off button is?


I can lie awake just daydreaming about the woulda coulda shouldas,replay every moment, every second, a slight look, change of tone or a touch for hours at a time.

Over think about conversations "what did it mean when they said ...." . I want to be able to stop and tell my mind to go to sleep now, but its like there is to much up there, like its working overtime trying to figure out the meanings of life or how to get through the next day with out despair.



Its my never land, my safe haven where I safely store my hopes and dreams which seem so far away. My fears that keep creeping up on me when I least expect it and my wildest crazy moments that only myself will ever know about.



Sometimes I wish to share .....but I get the better of myself ....

THE PARADOX OF OUR TIME

The Paradox of our time in history is that we have taller buildings yet shorter tempers, wider freeways but narrower view points.We spend more but have less; we buy more but enjoy less. We have bigger houses and smaller families, more conveniences but less time we have more degrees but less sense, more knowledge but less judgment, more experts, yet more problems, more medicine, but less wellness.

We drink too much, smoke to much, spend too recklessly laugh too little, drive too fast, get too angry, stay up too late get up too tired read too little watch Tv too much and pray too seldom.

We have multiplied our possessions but reduced our values. we talk too much, love to seldom hate too often.

We have learned how to make a living but not a life We've added years to life not life to years. We've been to the moon and back but have trouble crossing the street to meet a new neighbour. We conquered outer space but not inner space.

We have done larger things but not better things. We've cleaned up the air, but pollute the soul. We've conquered the atom but not our prejudice.

We write more but learn less We plan more, but accomplish less.

We've learned to rush, but not to wait We build more computers to hold more information to produce more copies than ever, but we communicate less and less.

These are the days of quick trips disposable nappies, throwaway morality, one night stands, overweight bodies and pills that do everything from cheer to quiet to kill.

It is a time when there is much in the showroom window and nothing in the stockroom. A time when technology can bring this letter to you and a time when you can choose either to share this insight or to just hit and close.

REMEMBER; spend some time with loved ones. Because they are not going to be around forever. Remember say a kind word to someone who looks up to you in awe because that little person soon will grow up and leave your side.

REMEMBER to give a warm hug to the one next to you because that is the only treasure you can give with your heart and it doesn't cost a cent.

REMEMBER to say "I LOVE YOU" to your partner and your loved ones but most of all mean it. A kiss and an embrace will mend hurt when it comes from deep inside of you. Remember to hold hands and cherish the moment for someday that person will not be there again. Give time to love, give time to speak and give time to share the precious thoughts in your mind.

xox by George Carlin.

Hot body operation

Me Likey :-)

I love miami

Miami i miss you

Korty Forty

I know you are only going across the ditch...but it seems like you are leaving and never coming back.

Sure I want you to have a great time and live your life to the fullest but for pure selfish reasons I would really like you to stay and hang out with me.

Yes you frustrate me the way you say one thing but do another and the fact that you have such a short attention span and zone out.

Anger me when you say things like "did you wash your face" or "he only sees you for one thing" when all I want you to do is listen

Made me bawl my eyes out when we used to fight and say such hurtful things that I can never forgive you for.

Drove me crazy when you would borrow/take my clothes without asking and then would make out that you didn’t have them. Then when I would find them in your room you would have the audacity to make out that you asked me when you didn't and made me think I was crazy

Infuriate me when you would lie to me when I knew the truth and would continue the lie just to save face.

Confuse me when you would hangout with people I didn’t approve of (let’s be honest they were pretty much drop kicks.)

Frighten me with some of the decisions you made in your life....

There were times when I used to wish you weren’t my sister and I would get so angry with you I would clench my fists and burst into tears, I would say things to you I didn’t mean just to make you cry. I would roll my eyes when you would tell me your problems and not even listen because I couldn't be bothered. I would tell you to grow up when you were just having fun and laughed with the others at your expense because you said something silly ....that’s what sisters do right???...so why do I feel guilty????

I want you to know that you are my best friend, always have been and always will be.

I do find it hard to show you affection when I can easily hug a random, but I have never laughed so hard with anyone...AND don’t think I could.

I love the fact that when I am mad at you, you instantly win me over when you sing "please forgive me"

I love that we have a special hand shake that we copied from parent trap but pretended that we made up

That you make out that you can surf and tell people you are a surfer...when you dont even have a surfboard.

That if you are talking to someone on the phone and get snapped out you pretend your phone cut out hahahaha.

Love that you didnt go to dans game because you went to a lolly shop as well.

I love that even though you do zone out you still pretend to listen...

I love that if someone was to ever say mean things to me you instantly attack because you know I just cry...

Pretty much know Ace Venture, goonies, laybrinth and Major pain off by heart

When you get drunk you ask me if I hate you... usually makes me do hate you because you ask me every 2 minutes (no word of a lie you do)

I love if we see someone wearing something that looks like pigani 2001 we don’t have to say anything...because we are both thinking it.

The fact that we come up with random shit like imagining to eat burgers late at night because we had no food in our house.

or...

When chris had an account at the bakery we racked it up so high that the bakery refused to serve us hahaha...and we lied and told him that it was demi and jackson.

Love that we would tell mum we were going for a run and we actually would go to the diary spend up large and pinch our cheeks to make it look like we ran for ages.

Love that we both used to wrap glad wrap around our bodies in order to be thin...then when we would laugh about it tell people, they would look at us like we needed help.

Love/still heartbroken when you got rid of my clothes because you know I have slight hoarders disease and still have items of clothing from when I was 12...

Love that you dont understand my love for kicks and basketball shorts...and how you couldnt believe that I went overseas and brought more when I had a wardrobe full.

I love that we say random things to nanny and poppy just to get a reaction eg"poppa are you going to town to hit the clubs" or when you were bored you made me dance weirdly to people ...but then it backfired and creepy mc creep bought me a drink ...which you drank because "you were checking to see if it was spiked"

You are my sister and made me who I am... so if I never say it don't for a second think I don't feel it ... because I really do love ya korty forty

I'm sorry that I lied to you and told you that I would love you forever.

I'm sorry that I don't know what is going through my turmoil brain,and why I am so unhappy, I'm sorry I cant seem to make sense and that I told you that I didn't know if I loved you, I'm sorry I shattered your heart into little pieces but I couldn't be in this half heartedly.

There was a time when you were my everything, the reason I woke up in the morning with a smile on my face, the reason I dressed up and made an effort instead of walking out of the house in track pants or pajamas. the reason the world made sense.

You were my go to person when I was down, when I heard some juicy gossip, when I always locked my keys in the car, when I couldn't stop crying because I had watched a sappy movie or I heard a sad song, my go to person that always made me laugh and would hug me and call me a silly muli, when I spoke before thinking ...you would roll your eyes and say something like "no little miss Ashby the whale isn't real, hence why its in a museum"

We had great summers going to the beach, diving, laughing with our friends staying up all night talking about the future and what it beholds for us...I felt so safe around you, like I was unstoppable I loved you so much that the thought of not being around you made me sick to my stomach...

But something happened.....we began to argue alot say things that will forever hurt each other, you never came home in the weekends, you said that you didn't love me to many times and I to you, we lost the magic we lost our wreckless love.

I honestly don't know how we will both cope I wish life was easy and that I couldn't feel the pain ...

I' m so sorry that I won't be your some kind of wonderful, but how can I when I'm not happy with myself, hopefully this is a rut. Hopefully we will reunite in the future, Hopefully .....

But I am sorry I lied to you, I wanted to be your forever I really did...and for that I am sorry.

I'll be there

When you cant decide if you want black forest chocolate or fruit and nut...I will help you decide

When you drink a bit to much and start crying because you didn't fulfill your dream of being a rock star...I will be crying with you because I didn't fufill my dreams of ruling the world.

When you want to do a drive by but to ashamed to ask anyone to go with you...I will already be shoving you in the car with a destination already in place

When your heart gets broken into little pieces...I will be there in a flash with kfc, ice cream, ciggies and wine saying "that bastard, don't worry I'll give him a big upper cut"

When you want to dance on table tops screaming at the top of your lungs" I love this song"....I will be there right next to you dancing on the table with my hands in the air trying to look like a dancer from Chris browns video clip

When you want to wear a crop top with opague tights because miranda kerr was wearing it...I'll be there to slap some sense into you.

When you are laughing so hard you can't breathe...I will be laughing/ snorting with you .

When you are singing out of tune on singstar and making everyone cringe when you try it hit the high notes...I will be your back up dancer doing the shimmy with jazz hands.

When you just want to sit in silence ....I will be there sitting in silence with you.

When you feel like your world is crumbling around you and that you can't cope anymore...I'll be there to pick you up.

And when the years are showing on your face and your strongest days are gone, I will be there with you all wrinkly playing last card saying "shit we had a great life"

"We think we need so many useless things, when all we really need is time to breathe"

I heart you Maggie Gyllenhaal.

Life... some kind of wonderful

She giggled as she kissed the cherry blossom she called life...

For she knew it was exposing her to a some kind of wonderful that she couldn't describe.

It was like the first time she tried fudge ice cream at movenpick which obviously was the reason her waist had extended 3 inches , or the first time she heard her favourite song, which she sings so loudly and out of tune in the car that the people in the next car slowly wind up their window to escape the pain.

The same some kind of wonderful that used to make her heart flutter everytime he would walk into the room with a smile so big it melted her heart,even if he did buy her a vaccum cleaner for her birthday or could get short tempered and lazy he still was her wonderful.

When she purchased a new outfit she knew she could never afford and would more then likely be eating baked beans for a month. Which she would then hang up in her room to admire for about a week before putting in the wardrobe in colour cordination using only black coat hangers, because to her other colours were like having your life out of order

That same sort of some kind of wonderful feeling she gets everytime she sees her friends, the way they always pick her up, can talk all night long about the same subject with out getting bored, laughs when she trips over in front of a crowd, holds her hair back when shes had a few,is there when shes crying her eyes out because she hates her job and she loves that they are always up for a good night out and dance till the wee hours of the morning. .......

I mean she knows her wonderful isn't perfect and sure she would love a better job, smaller wasitline, curses god for not giving her legs to heaven, an account with free flowing money, the voice of alicia keys, and the addiction for food....but

...I guess that wonderful is her life and for now ...she would never change it

xox

Wreckless love

Lets go back in time,where you wanted to know my every move tried to keep it smooth keeping up with me, you drove me crazy oh baby lets go back there.

I want to have that wreckless love that off the wall wont stop till I get enough of that crazy love.
Lets go back there and take it back to where we just couldn't get enough of that wreckless love, where we got butterflies when we just thought about kissing each other, holding hands was like melting so unfamiliar but so right, where we needed that wreckless love, staying up all night talking and kissing not caring that we had work in a couple of hours, lets go back there.

Where we didn't need anyone else because we had each other to the point that if the world was ending we wouldn't have a clue.that crazy love where we needed each others touch it was so new a bit hesitant, nerve wrecking, stomach clenching if I didnt see you or talk to you, watching what we said around each other, wanted to be touched so badly we couldn't get enough of it.
Getting dressed up making an effort for each other, carefully doing my hair and make up, checking to see that nothing is out of place.

Together we were a force to reckon with, we were unstoppable we had a wreckless love I don't care where we are kinda love....

Dancing, its like air to my lungs it keeps me alive

I find the less I dance the more I feel like I can't function.

.....it was love at first sight........